With a heavy heart

A week after my brother’s wedding, my then-fiance and I adopted a dog from a shelter. We are both dog people and for about six months had been looking to add a furry friend to our lives. He found our girl. Tucked in a cage, scared, chasing her tail. He found her.

I highlight that because since finding the love of my life, he has brought all my other loves into our life.

The little dog shook and didn’t spare us a glance. A worker brought her into a private room and she focused her attention on the worker. But I could tell. She was a good girl (an oxymoron, all dogs are good, they are the best).

The shelter was closing for the night but they stayed open to process our paperwork. This was not a facility with the luxury of time. They were not a no-kill place and she had been there for months already.

When we went back to pick her up two days later, after she was spayed, she raced toward us. I sat in the back of the Mazda and we drove to our condo. She was matted and dirty, we couldn’t bathe her until she healed. She showered us with love.

I took her for a walk and then we took a nap on the couch. And she fit so perfectly into our lives from that moment on, I know God led us to her.

Yesterday, she wasn’t herself. I took her to the vet, she underwent surgery, she was recovering well, but she didn’t wake up this morning. She didn’t suffer a single day.

Today, we’re heartbroken. Today, we cry. But today, I’m so grateful for her. We gave her eleven years and she gave us her heart. She cherished us.

We went from engaged, to married, to parents of two children and she helped us through every stage. Coming home and not seeing her sweet face in the window is hard. Missing her steals my breath. But if the only way to avoid the pain is to never have known her, I still choose her.

Rest well, my sweetheart. You were an angel on earth to us. I’ll miss you forever but one day when I’m not hurting so bad, I’ll honor you by rescuing someone else.

 

Teaser Thursday!

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I’m so excited to share a teaser excerpt from my new release A Perfect Picture of Us, coming from The Wild Rose Press on December 17th (CLICK HERE for more info).

“Jess, I shouldn’t have come. I really can’t give you too much information,” he said, suddenly unsure.

Still gorgeous. Still unattainable. Sitting prim and proper, with her legs and arms crossed, Jessica Edwards was every inch a lady. He remembered being in awe of her the first semester of law school. He’d never have approached her. He’d never been exposed to a person like her. The woman was so sure of herself, so perfect, and yet, so kind. She shouldn’t be real. She should have some terrible hidden secret. But, he’d never found any during their time as study partners when she’d asked for his help.

“I’m being sued, right? You’re here to serve me papers?” she asked, shaking the envelope.

He scanned her big blue eyes, searching for any hint of what she might be feeling. Her words, delivered without any emotion, gave him no hint about what turmoil might lie beneath. He’d been good at reading people but oddly never her. “Jess, have your legal team review the case.” He lowered his voice, softening his words. He’d never been sued, and he’d never put himself in the position of the other party, until now. He rubbed the palm of his hand against his heart. Something ached at her reaction. “The papers are in order. The process is fairly cut and dry.”

“Maybe to you but to me? I don’t need drama, Leo. I don’t need complications right now.” She shut her eyes and tilted her face.

Please don’t cry. If she sobbed, then he’d feel like a jerk. Then maybe he’d beg off this case and lose the promotion. If he backed out, he’d stay and his career would stall. He shuddered. Losing wasn’t an option.

 

Countdown to Countdown to Christmas

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This picture is from Pixabay but might also be EXACTLY how I feel right now!

I love Christmas and in the spirit of Scrooge (more McDuck than Ebeneezer), I keep it in my heart all year round. As a kid, I watched VHS tapes of Holiday TV specials whenever I was sick. I am always planning out my Christmas decorations (in the spring, planting additional shrubs for more net light displays, in the fall, crafting garlands and wreaths). And I love nothing more than a December-set romance story!

I have an agreement with my husband not to decorate until the day after Thanksgiving. BUT I start the seasonal assault on the senses in October.

Smell (Every room gets a tree-scented fragrance–helps until we cut down our real tree); Taste (cookies!!!); Touch (velvet flannel sheets once the weather turns here in the Midwest); Sound (Dean Martin sings carols from October on); and of course, Sight (every TV set to the Hallmark Channel by default).

If you read my stories, it comes as no surprise I’m a HUGE fan of Hallmark Channel. I love the beautiful sets, the tender romances, and the holiday joy seeping into every inch. I’ve been anxiously counting down to TONIGHT and the start of Countdown to Christmas. And, the best news, Hallmark has an app out today giving the schedule of every movie!

https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/hallmark-app-help-live-best-202957968.html

Happy viewing!